Our Story

Yesterday was the day that my world was turned upside down. Three weeks ago we found out during the ultrasound that the baby's heart rate was too high, over 200. I went back yesterday to have a follow up ultrasound and the heart rate dropped down to 188, which was still too high. They also noticed that the nuchal fold was measuring to large, and it is highly likely that it is a chromosomal abnormality or a heart defect. I talked to both my OB and a specialist and after they looked at everything, both of them said that I'm going to lose the baby. There is a 10-15% percent chance that I could carry the baby to term, but most likely it would be stillborn or pass away shortly afterward.  Right now I have the option to do some testing, which I think Jon and I have decided that we are going to do, it would be helpful to at least have a diagnosis, though it won't make this any easier. Either way I will need to choose whether or not to end the pregnancy now or wait to miscarry, which could happen at any time during my pregnancy. None of them said that there is a possibility to come out of this situation with a living baby. It is so difficult to see your child kicking their legs and sucking their thumb, and then moments later have someone tell that child is not going to live. This is going to be the hardest choice I have ever made, right now I plan to wait and pray.