Thursday, January 21, 2010
In 24 hours I find out if I will be meeting Eli. I have a million things that I could be doing today, but instead I am just sitting around thinking and waiting. We want to have some type of funeral or service once he is gone, I should probably start planning that so I don't have to worry about it once he arrives. A local funeral home will be paying for everything, including a plot in the cemetery that is for children and babies who have passed. I think I will want this closure, but I am 20 years old, I shouldn't have to be planning a funeral for my own child. I wish I knew what was going to happen tomorrow, the anticipation is starting to make my body physically and mentally weak. I have no idea what I'm going to do if I have to wait another month to find out how this will end, I'm afraid it will put me over the edge. For right now I am going to try and stay busy. Through all of this I have picked up the hobby of photography, and I honestly think that it has helped me. Something about the art of capturing a moment and being able to keep it visually alive has given me a way to express my emotions when I don't know how to otherwise. I still am unsure of whether or not I will want to see photographs of Eli and his birth experience, but I will have them taken so that the memories are there if I ever want see them. Thank you for all of your support, it is truly heartwarming to have so many people surrounding me at this time in my life.
Posted by LC at 11:46 AM
- ▼ January (8)
After several ultrasounds and two CVS tests, it was confirmed that our son, Elijah, had Trisomy 13. He had several defects such as extra fingers, cleft palate, no lenses (eyes), enlarged kidneys, two vessel cord, the right side of the heart appeared to be larger than the left, and a few more things. Although Eli had many complications, he was both perfect and beautiful to us. He has opened up our hearts to what love truly means. We were not sure if he would make it to term or through labor. Around 35 weeks it became obvious that Elijah's growth was slowing down. I was induced at 37 weeks, and Elijah Alexander was born at 2:30 am, April 25, 2010, weighing 4 lbs. 15 oz. He was absolutely beautiful. He lived for 12 beautiful hours, and at passed away peacefully at 2:30 pm, April 25, 210.
- I have such an amazing family, I am so blessed. My husband Jon and I have a beautiful daughter named Dylan who is constantly making us smile. We also have a son, Elijah, who has changed our world and touched our hearts. Even though he is an angel now, we will always embrace and celebrate his life.