Friday, January 15, 2010
By this time next week I may be preparing to meet Eli. I'm so incredibly nervous, and I don't know how I'm going to get through this next week. I feel sick to my stomach, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I just want to know that all will be okay. I hate the unknown. A part of me wants Friday to come quickly, but then a larger part of me doesn't want it to come so I can cherish every last minute I have feeling Eli inside of me. Either way I won't be getting good news on Friday, it will either be time for him to come (and go) or it will be more waiting and not knowing. Sometimes I still think all of this is some horrible dream that I will eventually wake up from, and I wish that were the case. I don't know what to do in the next 7 days, what are you supposed to do? I don't want to wait for my son to pass away, I don't want to go through anymore pain, I just want a healthy son.
Posted by LC at 10:23 AM
- ▼ January (8)
After several ultrasounds and two CVS tests, it was confirmed that our son, Elijah, had Trisomy 13. He had several defects such as extra fingers, cleft palate, no lenses (eyes), enlarged kidneys, two vessel cord, the right side of the heart appeared to be larger than the left, and a few more things. Although Eli had many complications, he was both perfect and beautiful to us. He has opened up our hearts to what love truly means. We were not sure if he would make it to term or through labor. Around 35 weeks it became obvious that Elijah's growth was slowing down. I was induced at 37 weeks, and Elijah Alexander was born at 2:30 am, April 25, 2010, weighing 4 lbs. 15 oz. He was absolutely beautiful. He lived for 12 beautiful hours, and at passed away peacefully at 2:30 pm, April 25, 210.
- I have such an amazing family, I am so blessed. My husband Jon and I have a beautiful daughter named Dylan who is constantly making us smile. We also have a son, Elijah, who has changed our world and touched our hearts. Even though he is an angel now, we will always embrace and celebrate his life.